Feel the Sea Breeze

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2009-05-05T01:06:00

2009-05-05T08:06:22Z

hey guess what? i'm already on break-mentality.

high time i put a title for this

2009-04-12T20:48:06Z

i really need to aggregate everything about me in one place. no, take that back, i need the internets softwares to do that for me.
1. been messing around with Reason. i finally figured out how to use it, thanks to learning MAX/MSP in class. it's all the DSP crap that finally made me understand what the hell effects and crap are all about.
2. why am i still on livejournal? why are we still on livejournal? methinks it be high time i moved on.
3. http://www.last.fm/music/Johnny+Hwang/Demo+2009
4. i've forgotten all my html. what a broken language.
5. meebo anyone?
6. i can't disable this stupid mousepad tap thing. really annoying.
7. i got a new netbook!! problem is it's running an outdated, unupdatable version of XP Chinese. what OS should i load it with? (no CD drive, so i gotta sacrifice one of my flash drive's contents. thank goodness i got plenty of those).
8. listen + download + comment on me music. plz.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2009-03-15T11:43:00

2009-03-15T18:43:41Z

nooooo facebook you totally fucked up!! not all corners are rounded, wtf?!? tab buttons aren't rounded. advertisement pictures aren't rounded. album photos aren't rounded. why the inconsistency? i hate facebook now!!

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2009-03-14T00:17:00

2009-03-14T07:17:46Z

i really like the rounded corners in the new facebook. they're very friendly =]]

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2009-02-19T17:58:00

2009-02-20T01:58:38Z

damn. i feel kinda sorry for california state senator maldonado now. he did the right thing in signing a budget that actually sorta kinda works, but is probably going to cost him his seat =(. srsly, california's legislature is so fucking broken that i'm amazed that we actually have moderates serving in office. both democrats and republicans are so extreme in their positions that nothing ever gets done, and if you compromise, your reps won't vote for you. how retarded is that?

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2009-01-26T21:43:00

2009-01-27T05:43:25Z

hey. it's been a really long day of running around campus. now my head hurts and my nose is sniffling. i don't feel so well.
lawl what do i kid myself. i never update this piece of shit anymore meh. i ought.
ever feel like sometimes you just don't want to do anything at all? yeah i feel like that right now. just wasting time. wasting life. wasting myself. meh.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-12-28T10:50:00

2008-12-28T18:50:31Z

eek bouncing up and down on a whale-watching boat chasing killer whales is not fun. so many people were puking on the trip (not me). damn.
but they sure do look awesome in the wild.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-12-16T21:39:00

2008-12-17T05:39:09Z

there's nothing more nasty than stepping into a shower and stepping on a menstruation pad my sister left behind... hella nasty jesus..

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-11-30T20:29:00

2008-12-01T04:29:32Z

well, good news is my hair doesn't get in my eyes now.
bad news is i have a bad haircut ZXD

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-11-22T10:04:00

2008-11-22T18:05:00Z

wiring things together in Logisim is fun.
building a mock CPU where the project specs change daily is not fun.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-11-08T16:19:00

2008-11-09T00:19:53Z

johnny thinks debra's writing is incredibly cheesy.
it's so sad to read...
i feel sorry for her.
lol.

music majors and why i can't stand them

2008-10-23T06:05:14Z

at least the ones at berkeley. god there cannot be a less creative breed of people on earth. omg. tonic always on the first chord, last chord, and penultimate is always five in root position. Seriously. Who the fuck else thinks in block chords? they never do anything daring, or even try something new, a new nonharmonic color note, nothing like that. it's always the same old diatonic shit, the same old I IV V I.

they annoy me most during homework analysis. so the other day, it was my chorale harmony being analyzed, and people just can't get over the fact that i use unorthodox progressions, really altered chords, and focus more on making the tenor and alto sound interesting. do people ever play music that they write anymore? Or do they simply follow what Bach does, which is pretty much the same boring shit over and over? there's only so many different ways to harmonize a melody in the Bach style, and yes, Bach has done them all 23 different ways. there's a reason he marked the end of the Baroque era: by the time he was done, that style is so fucking stale.

And yet music majors in my class continue to do the same old boring shit. nothing new. nothing daring. it all sounds the same. hell, i bet they all did their harmonizations together. how else can they all have the same chord progressions, same bass line, same fucking notes for the altos and tenors (one note samba, to quote Mrs. Glover).

god. they're a reason they're mediocre. at least my stuff sounds good to the ear and sounds different at the same time.

Measures of Time

2008-10-07T05:57:07Z

Let 400 miles be the distance that keeps the world at bay
400 miles the hurdle no one dares trespass
Let 400 miles be not the distance we share
Not the reason I look southward for you
Nor the line I trace through a map
Nor the sadness devouring my sanity
Walking where we once walked in bliss

I measure time like this

14 days for you to taste my tears in the salt spray from the sea
2 hours for you to hear my name when I yearn for you at night
A near instant to see the wanting on my face
But with you from the start belongs my love

Let the roaring train not wake you from your sleep
So I may watch you, watch over you, as you dream
Let the roaring train pass by, not wake me
Not tear through my nebulous thinking
Nor remind me its northward journey
Nor lay on my left to stare only at the clock
Raving where we once raved in bliss

I measure time like this

The days since I picked up the last of your hair
The fading scent of the gum you've left behind
52 seconds, the length of my recorded voicemail, my all-or-nothing
An instant, for your words to melt my heart

Our measurements of time

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-10-06T09:23:00

2008-10-06T16:23:25Z

eeeek, let me be not sloppy.
here comes a second draft.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-09-21T20:00:00

2008-09-22T03:00:44Z

let this be the end of bullshit.
fuckkk i hate my parents.
my family.
fucking holding me down.
their money is poison.
their money bought my independence.

let me count down the days, just count down the fucking days, until i move through this hellhole. let me never look back, never yearn to return to this kind of life.
i really should stop thinking that other people are luckier than i.
just two more years. two more fucking years. i don't care how uncertain a future i face anymore. there will always be one constant in my life, and that will be the basis for the start of my new life.
god. i only wish it were tomorrow.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-09-16T22:02:00

2008-09-17T05:02:32Z

hello world.
i have an important announcement to make.
i don't like it when people underestimate me.
that is all.
thank you.
goodbye.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-09-04T14:37:00

2008-09-04T21:37:22Z

remind myself: 104

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-09-02T20:45:00

2008-09-03T03:45:06Z

best summer ever.
too bad summer's over now :/
i'm so glad i have finally found the one person to share the rest of my life with.
let the waiting begin. already i'm missing lucy. badly.
i guess it's a good thing to have something as important as this decided so early eh? one more burden off my back.

my heart's just not in it

2008-08-14T17:25:53Z

last semester during finals week, i was so pumped and ready to go to ace those finals, which i pretty much ended up doing. i was like, yes, final, let's get this over with, let's ace this shit mang. not this time around. god, it feels like the last few weeks turned me into a completely different person. i'm not saying that's a bad thing, just gradewise. it's a good thing that math 55 i'm gonna retake an equivalent of it anyway, and my GPA should be able to take the hit it's gonna get from the summer and i should still be on track to claim my major.

well, even though life does feel unfair at the moment, i know that fate has probably been better to me than it has to other people.
fuck. two finals to study for. not really looking forward to that. and the campanile general area smells craptastic. like crap.

Dedicated to Lucy

2008-08-12T01:20:53Z

I used to write love letters,
Always in black ink, always on paper:
Ink for its permanence, to flesh out my empty promises;
Paper so flames may consume my words as it does my heart.
I used to write love letters,
To swear outrageous oaths because they sounded true,
To masquerade simple metonymy as poetry,
As if soothing words prove my commitment to no one but myself.
I used to write love letters, I kid you not,
To seal them up and throw them away
Hoping to rid myself the curse of blindness,
That folly of braggarts to proclaim the impossible.
I used to write love letters, really,
Paper rafts on a silent pond
That sink, disintegrate, and disappear
In a final whirl of gray.

I don't write love letters anymore,
Outmoded, old-fashioned vehicles of conceit
Too shallow to contain subtle emotions,
The intense pain of longing,
Nor the euphoria that makes me human.
No, I don't write love letters anymore,
Not as a way to test mine, nor to gauge yours,
But as a speaking photograph, impressions
From my mind, a piece of art to be treasured,
Remembered, like our time together,
An immortal truth that does not fade away.

democrats just dont know how to win an election do they?

2008-08-04T02:39:50Z

despite all the media hype about how mccain's on his final ropes in attracting people to pay attention to him and obama's invincible trip across the world, mccain's actually gaining more electoral votes than obama. obama became more popular in the giant blue states, but mccain became more popular in battleground states, the states that matter. according to latest polls, mccain will get 7 million votes in california, while obama gets 10 million. awesome. 3 million wasted votes right there. if you're californian and you love obama, do us all a favor and move to the battleground states where it matters. since each battleground state wins by margins of hundreds of thousands, the 3 million surplus californians can win every single battleground state, if they choose to do so, up to 10 battleground states. instead, they're dicking around in california, wasting their vote, and wondering how the hell did mccain get elected.

the power of bach

2008-07-25T00:22:10Z

playing bach is really soothing. his music is logical, and helps me make logic out of an often illogical and emotional day that i get. subject, counter-subject, episode, plus the awesome imitations and sequences, the way the phrases seem to be drawn out of thin air but are actually combinations and permutations of each other, an already-existing theme, makes his music so much more powerful than anything else i've played so far. it makes reason out of an unreasonable world.

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-07-17T20:37:00

2008-07-18T03:37:57Z

well haven't updated LJ for a while.
yep. definitely gonna sink gradewise thsi summer.
ah well. at least there's a special someone to share summer with =P

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-06-26T16:54:00

2008-06-26T23:54:22Z

1. holy shit that's a shitload of homework i need to go through -_-'
2. yay i got contacts!!

3nhydr4_lutr1s @ 2008-06-07T16:25:00

2008-06-07T23:25:09Z

lolmygod i can't believe i forgot to put down the handbrake while driving. now everything smells of burning rubber.